It is interesting how our perception of love changes over the years.
From innocent hopeful love to more mature love. I am an idealist
and you can tell from my love poems that I love quickly and with
my whole heart. Though many relationships didn't last long, they
nonetheless were very heartfelt at least from my stance. It is very
revealing to read your poems later and see what you were thinking
and feeling at the time.
Although it wasn't always easy, I made it through all the years of looking
for true love and finally found it. See My Friend and Soul Mate page for
the poems for my husband and true love.
I never gave up on love and don't regret always giving my heart fully. As
they say, it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
It got me to where I am today and shaped who I am. I hope you enjoy
peeking into my heart and its journey over the years.
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First love, age 15:
We met at the ice skating rink. Our eyes caught each other across the rink.
The stuff of young idealistic dreams.
He gave me a mizpah (those necklaces broken in half that you both wear) and an ID bracelet.
Lots of flowers too. He was so sweet.
It lasted 1 month - how that seems a long time when you are young.
Someone Just Like You
I've met many people,
But none quite like you;
You came into my life
When I needed someone new.
Someone I could talk to,
Who felt the same way;
Someone I could think of,
All throughout the day.
When I first saw you,
I knew it had to be;
I guess I was the one for you,
And you the one for me.
Just think if we had never met,
I would have still been blue;
Looking for that special someone,
Not knowing it was you.
I know this is the same for you,
I can see it in your eyes;
Finally after all this time,
Someone has heard my cries.
After all the waiting,
Not knowing what to do,
I found that special someone,
That someone just like you.
MAA 1984
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College puppy love, age 18:
We met during the first weeks of college.
We were basically inseparable as happens at this age.
We went to see U2 Joshua Tree. Most awesome concert.
It also lasted 1 month - again a lifetime in young years.
A Bet
I know we've just met
But what I feel is strong;
And I'm willing to bet,
It will last quite long.
As I've come to know you,
From all the things you say,
And everything you do,
I've liked you more each day.
A Different Love
A newborn love is tender and sweet,
Each time two people happen to meet.
You never can know just when it will be;
But only can hope and wait 'til you see.
Each love is different, and each person too;
So one never knows just what it will do.
It may last forever, or maybe you'll find;
That what you believed was all in your mind.
But one special point you cannot forget;
If you keep trying, you'll conquer love yet!
MAA 1987
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On seeing my first love again years later, age 18:
It was by chance seeing him at the pool hall, on my college campus.
I almost didn't believe my eyes because it was hours from where we grew up.
He didn't even go to my college. I thought it was fate.
Sparks flew but he was dating someone else I found out.
So it never started again. But ah the memories of first love.
So innocent and sweet.
Second Time
They say the first love never really fades;
Though the love may be lost, a small part remains.
As I stare at your picture, the memories are clear;
Even though time has passed every year.
I never expected to see you once more;
To feel again the feelings of before.
You suddenly appeared, simply out of the blue;
Leaving me wondering what I should do?
Can this love be rekindled?
What could be the harm?
The second time may just be the charm.
MAA 1988
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My first long relationship, age 20:
We met at a music concert on the college campus.
We danced together spontaneously and that is how it all started.
He would play music at the college coffee shop as I listened.
I was a junior and he was a senior. A nice stable relationship.
It lasted 7 months and ended amicably as friends.
You suddenly appeared, simply out of the blue;
Leaving me wondering what I should do?
Can this love be rekindled?
What could be the harm?
The second time may just be the charm.
MAA 1988
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My first long relationship, age 20:
We met at a music concert on the college campus.
We danced together spontaneously and that is how it all started.
He would play music at the college coffee shop as I listened.
I was a junior and he was a senior. A nice stable relationship.
It lasted 7 months and ended amicably as friends.
A Love Started
Two people met and just by chance,
They fell in love and found romance.
The music and dancing were just a part,
Of how their love came to a start.
The tender moments that they shared,
Showed each one how much they cared.
As time went by, they came to see;
That their love was meant to be.
MAA 1989
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Love at first sight, age 22:
He was from New Orleans and we happened to meet at a piano bar.
We talked all night and were inseparable for 3 days, then he had to leave.
I wasn't sure if I would see him again. I didn't hear from him for a little while,
then he came into town one more time and the sparks were still there.
But it wasn't meant to be. We talked once more but I never saw him again.
It was just too hard being long distance.
Dream
Was it just a dream?
I felt the warmth of your body,
The slow kiss of your mouth,
The steady beat of your heart,
Your warm breath on my neck.
It felt so good, it had to be real.
I heard the honest words that you spoke,
We talked of God and the world,
The time rushed by us so quick,
But yet it felt like forever.
How could a dream last 3 days?
And yet it was gone like the wind.
Before I knew what had hit me.
When I woke from the dream,
It felt like something was missing.
If it was a dream, why do I feel so lost?
If it was a dream, let me have it again!
For it was so sweet, so special, so real.
I didn't ever want it to end.
How can you hold onto a dream?
You can only savor it as long as it lasts,
And hope that it returns.
This dream will be mine forever.
If it does return,
I don't ever want to wake up.
If it was a dream,
Let me keep sleeping.
The only French poem I ever wrote, see translation below:
Pour toi
Je veux te toucher,
Je veux t'embrasser;
Quand tu me regarde,
Je ne peux pas penser.
Je crois que je t'aime,
Je pense a toi toujours;
Et quand nous sommes separe,
Je veux te voix encore.
L'amour est douce,
Mais il est complique;
Parce qu'il arrive,
Et puis il est allee.
J'espere que notre amour
Ne mourira pas;
Parce que je crois
Que je t'adore.
English translation:
For You
I want to touch you,
I want to kiss you;
When you look at me,
I can't think.
I believe that I love you.
I think of you always;
And when we are separated,
I want to see you again.
Love is sweet,
But it is complicated;
Because it arrives
And then it is gone.
I hope that our love
Will never die;
Because I believe
That I adore you.
MAA 1992
Ah, the hopefulness of youth. I always believed that love would be forever.
But often it was fleeting. I think I loved too soon and too much for many.
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Love online, age 32:
When I was on a break from my true love, now my husband,
I tried a few online dating sites. I met this man on match.com and
we met at a bookstore and quickly fell for each other. I thought
that he was my perfect match and that it was the real deal, and
gave him my whole heart as I usually do, but then he appeared
to not be what he seemed. He became distant and made excuses
why we couldn't meet and I became almost obsessed with finding
out what happened. Then I realized that it was a lost cause and
eventually gave up on the online dating and found peace with
myself and my life being single. Once I did that, my true soul mate
and now husband came back to me. Funny how that happens.
A Perfect Match of Souls
True romantic souls
Have met their perfect match.
They were searching for each other;
Now they are finally united.
The meeting was a dream,
More wonderful than imagined;
An instant connection,
Souls in perfect harmony.
The moment their eyes met,
The two souls felt the pull;
Longing to be near to each other,
As if they were coming home.
It felt so comfortable, yet exciting;
Chemistry and sparks, ease and romance;
The words and poetry so free
Each soul rejoicing in the event.
Their lips and hands were joined together,
The magic was so intense;
Now that these souls are connected,
They never want to be apart.
Like two magnets they are linked,
The force is too strong to fight;
These two souls cling to each other,
Never wanting to let go.
It is awesome and intense,
An overwhelming desire;
At once beautiful and scary,
Because the feeling is so strong.
It may be too soon to know,
If this perfect union is meant to be;
But if the two souls are true,
This love could be everlasting.
Even Better Than a Dream
The man that I have met
Is even better than a dream!
No dream that I could have conjured,
Could compare to what I have found.
He is perfect for me in every way,
More so than I ever imagined;
For who could imagine that such a man
Would really ever exist?
I am amazed at all of his traits,
Each one a gift just for me;
God blessed me with my perfect match,
A wonder to behold.
He is intelligent and wise,
Sensitive and caring,
Handsome and charming,
Soulful and passionate.
He brings out the best in me,
In a way that no one else can;
My intelligence and poetry,
My passion and beauty.
All my wishes for a mate,
Are fulfilled in this man;
Even beyond my expectations,
Even beyond my dreams.
I gaze into his deep soulful eyes
And I know that he is meant for me;
When he flashes his smile at me,
It warms my heart to its core.
His tender arms wrap around me,
Protecting and comforting me;
Soothing all my fears,
Answering all my prayers.
God's choice for me is wonderful,
So awesome beyond compare;
The dream I dared not even dream,
Has finally come true!
Awakening
In a way that no one else can;
My intelligence and poetry,
My passion and beauty.
All my wishes for a mate,
Are fulfilled in this man;
Even beyond my expectations,
Even beyond my dreams.
I gaze into his deep soulful eyes
And I know that he is meant for me;
When he flashes his smile at me,
It warms my heart to its core.
His tender arms wrap around me,
Protecting and comforting me;
Soothing all my fears,
Answering all my prayers.
God's choice for me is wonderful,
So awesome beyond compare;
The dream I dared not even dream,
Has finally come true!
Awakening
A new world is unfolding for me,
A passion is stirring inside;
You have awakened my fire,
You have captured my soul.
Each moment my life is changing,
Each day I discover more;
I see myself with new eyes,
Through your eyes I open the door.
I have never felt so comfortable,
Giving myself without a qualm;
Eager to embrace what I feared,
To embark on a journey of love.
The perfection I see amazes me,
Thoughts of you consume my mind;
I long to always be near you,
Never letting you escape.
This awakening is so powerful,
Do you realize what you have unleashed?
I wonder what thoughts you harbor,
What deep emotions you still protect?
I want to share everything with you,
Never holding anything back;
We can get lost in the sea of infinity,
Never coming up for a breath.
We can sustain ourselves on love alone,
Never growing tired or hungry;
When we are near to each other,
As we feed off our endless energy.
You have awakened all of me:
My passion and joy,
My soul and heart,
My mind and body.
No one else can compare to you,
No one even comes close;
My whole being is yours now,
Awake, alive and full of love.
Share With Me
Please share with me,
Share all of you,
Don't hold back,
Don't be afraid.
I want to reach inside,
To see your soul,
To hold it close,
Never letting go.
You don't have to be perfect,
Only showing your best side;
I think you are wonderful,
Even what you try to hide.
Don't think I can't sense
All that you are,
All that you feel,
All that you protect.
So don't keep it hidden,
You are safe with me;
I care for you deeply,
All that is seen and unseen.
I want to share your joy,
Your burdens and fears,
Your worries and doubts,
Your passion and tears.
We can share it all,
Just open your door;
My soul is waiting for you,
It is yours to explore.
MAA 2002
Reading these last few poems (which I avoided doing for years by the way), I see that I jumped in way too fast. But I was longing to find that special person and as often happens, you don't see their flaws at first. I poured my heart out almost literally. I learned a tough lesson from this experience. Be careful who you give your heart to. Take your time. It seems like it took me many years to learn that lesson.
I found love for myself through this period and that is the greatest love of all (as Whitney Houston so aptly sang). It is a love worth nurturing. It is an ongoing journey but worth every step along the way.
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